Sunday, July 4, 2010
alrights. im just gonna write some things down.
i never felt this weak in my life. well, maybe i do. we can never take life for granted can we? i used to be that strong girl who believed that things would be alright even if things would hurt me so badly. but i was wronged. i stumbled and fall so many times. this past few months. i don't know what has got to me. but i seem to lose the strength and courage i used to have in me.
it is tiring for me. cos i never seem to like what im going through now. i fall to pieces. and the thought of it crushed me and i will be that little girl who easily cry when she got lost sight of her mum. im not like that. im the type who hide my feelings, let alone my tears from falling in front of people. i now admit, im a weak girl. i need to let out my feelings so that people know. im not the happy, cheerful type. im the type who will try, but after a few tries. i dont think i will continue. thats just me.
was it my fault to flare up? i really had had a bad day. i try dealing with it. you should have seen it. but to you i was just childish enough to walked off. but i tried for the whole day... and just for that moment, i knew i lost it. but you didn't see it. but instead you asked me to continue dealing with it. you say you will give me the support. but where was it? i got scolded instead.
then again, i asked myself. who am i falling in love with? cos you say i will know the real you soon. so, who exactly are you all this while? i felt that you are faking it. i felt you are lying to me. i cried enough in this relationship, more than enough. to think its just a short period of time.
12:52 AM
Your Say:
Sunday, November 15, 2009
let the good things come rolling in. and filled with smiles and laughters like always.
Cause I’m still learning the art of love
I’m still trying to not mess up
So whenever I stumble let me know
You need to spell it out
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
i totally agree with the quote above. no matter how bad your day is, i'm sure theres always something that cheered you up in some ways or another. you cant always expect the day to be good. cos thats just life, you know?
and so, on monday. my mum woke me up to school ever since so many months ago. haha. her voice sound so nice to my ears. okay, maybe cos i just miss the way she wakes me up :) and i managed to bathe early. things have been going fine isn't it? so, i kept telling myself that it was going to be a good day and i will try to think positive throughout the day.
and good things kept rolling in. the bus was in time even though i had to run for it. the train was in time and i got myself a seat. i was early for school. thats something new, for sure. i wore a dress to school. ni part tak de link actually. saje je. haha. the problem statement for the module was easy. i got to eat my pratas after craving for it for two weeks -.- . please lorr, everytime when i want to it, its closed! so, on that day. i wasn't hoping for it to open. and tadaa.. open la pulak.
i really tried to remain positive even though it tends to bother me. but good things don't always last long does it? my classmates did something to my laptop which caused me to waste time and go to IT helpdesk. seriously, its not funny at all. karma will hit you people one day :). i still tried to remain positive till the end of the day. and its not easy at all. but then again, its all in your mindset.
"today is a good day. i will remain positive"
Saturday, November 7, 2009
and so last sunday, i went to Great World City to watch the movie Jennifer's Body. wonder why that far? cos we wanted to catch a movie at a cinema we never watched before. haha. the place was peaceful. can't deny that. and the movie wasn't that bad too :)
afterwhich, we quickly rushed to RP to watch this malay production; Kental Ah Lu Mat! we were rushing to think that we were damn late but only to see others still taking their time queuing up. it was funny but the ending was kinda predictable. haha. expected la ye. the aunties beside us was being very noisy. aiyoh. now the pictures yea?
see the classic face. haha. stop it seyy.
we practically took photos in the train, Great World City and also at the malay production. what a day.
today marks another significant year for us.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
last saturday, i went out with my first sis. it felt like a long time since we went out together. usually its always my second sister and her. orang jealous tau tak invite :(. initial plan was to watch the movie Halloween II at tampines. since my second sis said it was a nice movie. but the plan was cancelled since we left the place at 5pm. and the movie start at 6.40pm -.-
in the end, we just walked around the place. and my sister got herself the shoe she been wanting. i remembered how much she shrieked when i told her there was no more stock. haha. and oh, she treat me to swensens! yeaness.
we both tried on something new that day. and it was nice! and the ice cream was yummy too. thanks sis! :)
i hope you will remain strong. i know you are. you can always count on me. eventhough im not always there, you can just call me and i will hear you out. whatever it is, don't feel as though you are the one at fault. cos you know you are not. and you will forever be my bestest sister! cheer up yea? :)
and so, i really hope our movie date will happen. cos i really miss hanging out with both of my sisters. eventhough dorg macam irrits, they are still the best to me! :) and more outings together okayyyy kakak kus? haha.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
last friday, my school had some school party. since it was halloween. the crowd was pathetic. RP should really invite the public the next time. haha. i was still considering whether to go or not eventhough the event start at 6pm. i think. im unsure myself. haha. so, in the end, i still went there. cos i really want to see how it was like.
most of them are dressed up in their costumes. as for me, im dressed up as thumbelina. ni part macam paham. haha. and saiful dressed up as edward cullen. ni part lagik macam paham! (die suruh tulis) haha. so, i reached home around 12 plus.
Thursday, October 29, 2009
you know the feeling whereby you just felt everything is falling apart? you just have to tell yourself that things are gonna be fine and just overcome it.
this week somehow wasn't a good week for me. i felt so drained out and its not even one week! hows that? so, i wonder what i have been doing that made me so freaking tired. i could hardly lift my ass today when i woke up. okay, bedek uh. but i could feel my body aching though. and in school, it gets worser. i was so lethargic and lazy that i just want the day to be over soon.
after school, attended some marketing talk which i felt that we wasted the time there -.- my bad. tak paham uh whats going on. thats why ye.. haha. and headed to starbucks to chill with idayu, nini, rebekah and her friend. which i can't remember the name. it was a nice feeling. i mean its been a long time since we have done that. and i love you girls la okay? :)
and to reach home to see that sweet little thing just makes everything more perfect. i didn't realise a bad start would end with a nice ending. i miss my family and i love them. random much, yea? haha.
alrights. will be back with updates! :)
" i simply choose to be ignorant. so that i wouldn't get so hurt"
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